It totally happened. I fell in love with my little boy today.
I know someone reading this will say, "Well, yeah! You better love that kid!" and I knew I would, but it just hadn't....happened yet. Does this make sense to anyone? When I first found out I was pregnant I had someone actually tell me not to feel bad if I didn't feel love for this baby right away. And he's been (literally) growing on me, but today it's like I realized for the first time how much I really love this kid. (On a side note, I feel bad calling him a kid all the time. My gramma even said, "Lexy, you're not having a goat! You're having a child!" But since we haven't settled on a name yet, there's only so many things to call him!)
I stashed the pictures from yesterday's ultrasound in my book. When I was on my lunch break at work today they happened to fall out on the table when I went to grab my book. I just so happened to glance at one of the profile shots and quickly thought, "Huh, he looks like my brother did when he was a baby." And then it clicked! Just like that! I don't even know how to explain it or why really, but I loved this baby so much more!! I just starred at the picture for the rest of my lunch break, thinking about how he looks like my mom and brother. I think he has their nose. :)
Am I crazy? Or is it amazing to everyone else that our kid is going to carry different traits of both my family and B's family? That is just amazing to me! All in this one little, unique human being. I just can't wait to see all the different parts of the two of us that God has chosen to use to make this little guy! What a blessing!
I had to share this picture (to the left) of him sitting with his hands tucked under his tighs. So silly.
Oh baby!! :)